Saturday, July 30, 2016

Tearing Down Your Walls


     "Use your mistakes to build stairs, not walls."  This quote hits very close to home. For awhile now, and especially now I've been struggling with myself. Some mistakes I have made, the way people feel about me, and mostly the way I feel about myself. I've been waiting to feel something inside that makes me want to be better for myself. A spark of recognition that makes me realize I need to feel better about myself and that I need to be better in general. Today, as I read that quote I felt that feeling. I have put walls up from being hurt and from hurting myself but I realize it's not all about that. It's not good to have walls up because that really doesn't leave much room for God to use you. Although I believe it's important to protect yourself, the Bible also says that we don't have to. God will protect us. "The Lord will fight for you, you only need to be still." (Exodus 14:14) The Bible also talks about God's protection in Psalms 91, so yes it's important to have discernment and to protect your own heart but God has us in the palm of His hand. I realize that it's not all about me protecting myself from getting hurt but becoming stronger and strong enough to hand over all of my hurts and all of my pain to God. I don't want my walls to hinder the plan God has for me and what He has called me to do. How used of God can you be if you have walls up all around you? What kind of a blessing will you be to someone if you are isolating yourself from spreading the gospel? I'm tearing down my walls, and I'm building stairs instead. The Lord will lead me and guide me to the person who He wants and needs me to be. I fully trust in my Father and everything He sees in me! 

Monday, June 13, 2016

Slow down

As a new driver I'm starting to learn new things, and I'm beginning to be more comfortable behind the wheel. I am more confident and I am bolder with the decisions I make while driving. One of my biggest battles I face while driving is the yellow light. I think to myself should I go for it, or should I stop? The other day while driving through a yellow light I had a thought. Isn't it funny how the yellow light means to slow down and to be cautious but most of the time we do the exact opposite. Instead of coming to a complete stop if possible we speed up in order to beat the red light we know is coming. Then I had another thought.. How many times do we do that in our spirit life? How many times does God gives us a yellow light and tells us to slow down but instead we speed up and rush into things?  There have been many times in my life that I have not waited on God. I ignored his yellow light that is telling me to slow down and to trust him. I always feel that I have it under control until I realize I rushed into something God was trying to protect me from.  God is simply warning us and  encouraging us to slow down. Faith in God includes faith in his timing. God's timing is always the right timing. I don't want to ignore the yellow lights God places in my life, I want to be obedient, and I want to trust in him. Just a thought!

Thursday, April 21, 2016

Jesus Is Always The Answer

We have all heard the saying, "Jesus is always the answer." Is that really true? How could Jesus really be the answer to everything? I mean, Jesus can't be the answer to that algebra problem on the math test. Let's think deeper though, is Jesus the answer to all of your real problems and situations you face in your life? The answer is yes.

Up until recently I laughed at that what seems like a silly saying, because even I didn't believe that Jesus could possibly be the answer to everything. I quickly found out that I was wrong. As I searched and searched for a different and possible answer to my problems I always came up empty. The world didn't offer me any deserving answers. The answers the world gave me tended to leave me with an even bigger question. I couldn't even turn to my family or friends because they didn't have the right answer either. Finally, it dawned on me that only Jesus could give me the right answer. Of course, his answer won't always be the answer that I want but if he's giving it to me then it's definitely what's right for me in the end. Sometimes we doubt him by asking the questions we ask, and then we take it a step further by doubting his answer. But if there is one thing I have learned not only is he simply the right answer but his answer to our questions, our prayers will always be right. So go ahead and laugh about it. Laugh about the silly saying that people spread around, but if you ask me a question I know what my answer will be. Jesus, and every time it will be Jesus. He has yet to fail me, so how could he be wrong?

Tuesday, March 15, 2016

Forgiveness

The worst thing I have ever experienced is loss. Three years ago I lost my dad and this year I lost myself. I've always had a sense of who I was or more like who I should be. Be a strong, happy girl who loves and serves the Lord. It doesn't seem like such a hard task until you realize you have to grow up too. Growing up means more difficult challenges and facing temptations. It means finally being tall enough for the roller coaster we call life. I wasn't prepared for the drop. One day, I was that strong, happy girl and the next I was the girl who lost her dad. It's hard to face such a tragedy and still keep a smile, but that's what I did. I remained strong but I had lost my happiness. Of course, God restored me but then I faced another challenge. Not only continuously grieving the loss of my dad, but moving into a new life. I should have relied on God but I was surrounded by others that I didn't know. I felt abandoned and as if no one else could understand my relationship with God. As a teenager it is hard to take a stand for what you believe in when everyone else is standing up for something else. Everything I thought I knew about myself and my life became a blur. I lost my relationship with God because I was afraid of being alone and not being accepted. I started to experience a life outside of God. Then I convinced myself that living a life of sin was easier than standing alone. I was wrong. When I lost Him, I lost myself. That strong girl became weak, lost, unhappy, and insecure. Most days, I couldn't look at myself and getting out of bed was a struggle. I was ashamed of who I became and I couldn't forgive myself for letting God down. I find it so easy to forgive others but so incredibly hard to forgive myself for what I have done wrong. Living a life without God is not easier, we don't always understand what He has planned, but He will always be the way to go. Although, I struggle to forgive myself, God does not struggle to forgive me. His forgiveness is my chance to start over and to find myself again. I am not perfect but I am not my mistakes. I know I am able to love myself because God loves me no matter what. It's never to late to be found again in Him.

Friday, January 1, 2016

The New Year

Going into 2016 I have no resolutions, no goals, and I don't even have dreams for the New Year. See, I don't want to claim I'm going to do something so great with this year that God has blessed me with and then not do it. I don't want to start something and then give up. So what do I want? I want 2016 to be a year of creation. I want to find something, or more accurately, I want to find someone.. Myself. 

So often we let the years fly by us. We go through the motions, literally saying if I can just get through this year. Then the next year comes and we're back to square one. What if we stopped letting the years fly by us? What if we actually made something out of them? And what if, just what if we actually made something out of ourselves? Maybe this is just me feeling this way, but I'm tired of going through the motions. I want to make something out of my New Year's and something out of it when it's old. This year my plan is to find myself in something that will recreate me into who I really want to be. As much as we don't like change, I do believe that the best change is the change you see in yourself when you have become who you want to be, and the best version of who you really are. 

Thursday, November 26, 2015

Thankkksssgiving

   This thanksgiving I struggle to find things I'm truly thankful for. Don't get me wrong, there are many things in my life I can be thankful for, but I often find myself playing hide and seek with those things. One minute they are there and the next no where to be found. I think a lot of people feel this way. We always take for granted what we should be thankful for, and we always focus on the things we aren't thankful for. That's my problem, but I'm challenging myself. My challenge is to find that one thing, that one person, that one place I am truly and utterly thankful for. No matter what I go through, or what anyone of us goes through, I know that there is at least one thing that we can be thankful for. I challenge you too, whether you feel as I do or not. Challenge yourself to always be thankful even when you're struggling to find the reasons to be. After all the best lesson is that positivity is key. 

Wednesday, August 12, 2015

The Sky Isn't Falling

I was really inspired by one of my dad's blogs that was titled, "The Sky Isn't Falling." His blog was about the economy, and upcoming election. I'm not really into the whole political scene, but I wanted to use his title and put a different spin on it. Here goes nothing!

Life throws us many obstacles, and normally we don't ask for them. Whenever we go through something tragic, or surprising, we automatically switch to the dramatic mode. At least that's how it is in my family, we claim that the sky is falling. This horrible thing just has to be the end of the world, it can't get much worse than this, but honestly it can. Sometimes when you're so close to a situation you don't realize how small of a problem it may actually be, or vise versa, maybe it actually is a huge problem. Whether big or small, my point is the sky isn't falling. I have recently learned this lesson myself, it's important to take a step back and look at the whole picture. The situation you're faced with might surprise you but what will surprise you even more is when you take a deep breath and realize everything you were over looking.