I Cannot Believe This

Have you ever had something absolutely tragic happen to you or something incredibly amazing and thought to yourself, "Wow, I cannot believe this is my life." Life is full of unexpected twists and turns that usually leave us feeling either hopeless and confused, or joyful and excited.

Throughout my life I've had this same reoccurring thought. After my father passed away, I was in complete shock and denial. I couldn't believe that I had become a child who lost a parent. I remember thinking to myself, "I cannot believe this is my life." Then I had the thought again when my family joined with another, and again after struggling with anxiety, insecurity, and grief. Yet after every season of my life, whether full of pain or joy, I am reminded of the goodness of the Lord.

There are those sweet moments in our life when our greatest burdens become our greatest blessings. Sometimes our disbelief of reality comes from a place of hurt, but the knowledge of God's grace restores our thoughts and brings comfort to our soul.

My life has taken many different turns, and soon I will move eight hours away from my family to begin one of my life's greatest journeys. This time when I think to myself, "I cannot believe this is my life," it won't be from a dark place in my heart, but from the part of my heart that shines the brightest. We are blessed in every season of our life because no matter what we go through, Jesus remains constant.

I'm astounded by the doors and opportunities God has given me. I simply cannot believe that this is my life and that I get to serve such a giving and loving Father! He is good.

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  1. KatSeptember 2, 2018 at 5:22 AM

    I’m so happy our lives have encountered and that you decided to move 8 hours away! I can’t wait to read what else you write!

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